and why i feel like this....

those happiness that u gave me all this time...why...only now i feel that im loosing it ....still not ready to loose everything that i felt before...ouh Allah...pleas give me the strength to face it at the end of the time..when the day come..and the last day i will face of loosing it...


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i let the tears to fall...i cried, i shouted..i need it...i dont want to loose it !!!pleas pleas pleas !!! heart dont beat slow..eyes dont let the tears fall again..mind dont think of it..to think all the possibilities that will happen later...is the only reasons...and i dont want to think!!but WHY ??? i keep drowning with my dreams....mind..pleas set it free...
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falling deep in the darkest night...i cant deny all things that happening this time... in the measurement and all the momentum of the day and night...exactly counting all the happiness that will dies at the end of the melody...


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i want the song to keep rolling all the time...coz it makes me feel so easy...as it comes from slow to high..and ends with lovely notes...but  HOW??? pleas heart..be strong...pleas soul be stable.. i dont really care bout myself..and why?? coz i really mind of being far from u...**


as the tears keep dripping like water falls from the sky...i keep telling to myself there will always a way to keep it tight.. but its not that easy to hold with something that u dont know well....pleas me..dont make easy little things to be complicated...


** and all the memories...i will keep it safely...though a new one will replace it as the time being...**

**dinner JTMK 2012 and the last at PUO**

**every one that really close to me**

p/s: i always pray that i wont loose all  the good things...and flushed away all the bad one...im hoping this all stuff wont end...may Allah hear me and blessed everything i did past ,now and future...  :'(